{personal rant.}

I found out a couple days ago that my friend has to put down her kitten because it has FIP an incurable/untreatable fatal cat disease and it actually makes me so upset because the vet told her its had it since it was born. She adopted from our local animal rescue and they do testing and vaccinations to make sure the animals are healthy when they leave which makes the situation all the more angering because that means they sold her a kitten and they knew it would die. no one should have to go through that having to put down an animal they JUST adopted, a baby. it just about literally is her baby too, her and her fiancé adopted it together and now they have to put it down together. its totally unfair for her and her fiancé and it just makes me so upset that the shelter would do this to anyone. now my friends and their kitten have to suffer physically and emotionally because some incompetent asshole let them adopt a sick kitten. 

Ive done alot of wrong. But I’ve also done alot of right. Ive never once heard a thank you but I’ve sure heard alot of fuck you’s.

the truth is irreleveant now. but i just thought you should know you didnt get your facts straight and i had to pay because of it. maybe instead of just telling people things from almost over a year ago you really should get the facts straight because alot of the story gets lost over time and like i said i had to pay because of your mistake. im sure you didnt cause me this pain on purpose, you just forgot the truth. but really you should think. especially about things of that magnitude before you say things. ive lost many days of sleep feeling like the worst person. and this morning i remembered the truth. im not calling you a liar. im just saying what you said cost me alot and you really should of thought about it before you said something. 

if only you knew the truth. about everything.

Stoner Story:

Ok so one time my mom went on vacation and left me home alone for a month. so one evening i had some friends come over and smoke some bowls with me and box a room. however i had forgotten that there was a family dinner i had forgotten to attend that evening so in the middle of the sesh my aunt came to my door. 

My friends were so high they didnt know what to do. The only guy in the house, who couldve left out the back door, came to the front and INTRODUCED himself to my aunt, mean while my female guests tried to hide behind a TRANSPARENT CURTAIN. 

My aunt told them to get out and then she sat down to have a serious talk with me while the smoke cleared out of the room. She started really strong talking about me and my life and my choices and after about 15 minutes she slowed down and she looked at me like she lost what she was saying and instead of giving me more hell she just said:

“Well … Im tired and … im hungry so Im going home” and she left.

After she left i laughed my ass off because i realised that i got my aunt group high.

my boyfriend is the fucking cutest ever. we were skyping and he made a cookie for me while he was like a thousand kilometres away. :3 i mean i didnt get to eat it but it was still really cute.

so fucking tired of my mom venting her mid life bullshit on me when i cant even say two words to her without her saying its my fault and that im stupid.

i suck so badly at social interactions and everytime i go out i try so hard to not be awkward but then i make an ass of myself and i spend the rest of my night under my blankets in the fetal position crying about the prospects of my future social life.

ill never understand highschool logic.

if youre a “popular person” with an unpopular opinion everyone agrees with you no matter what you said.

if youre an “unpopular person” and have an opinon at all it is disregarded and considered bullshit.

sooo I’ve been watching dexter on netflix for the past couple days. i have many opinions on it.

first Dexter is its the perfect combination of sex and gore.

second is it must be horribly awkward for the actors to pretend theyre having sex on set.

third DEB IS A BIG WHORE THAT NEEDS TO EAT. also her tits are disgusting and small.

fourth can we all just sit back and think about the fact that Dexter is a psycopathic serial killer and he gets a girlfriend crazier than he is?

I’m realising that I’m getting way too fucking old to be playing neopets. I need an heir to my neopets account. Someone who will maintain my awesome pets, shop and small fortune of neopoints. I have no younger relatives to leave it to. My neopets will be stuck in neo-limbo and eventually be deleted unless someone takes over for me and cares for them because I’m getting to old to give a shit about online pets. Who will answer the call and take over my pets when I’m gone?

This is a rant about my friends or should i say LACK THERE OF.

This august makes it a year since I quit weed (hoorah for me). And it’s been nearly a year since my friends have bothered to make fucking plans with me. Those were the same friends who claimed they would always be there for me and now i dont hit bong so they cant bother to hit me the fuck up anymore on facebook. They walk by my house dont even hit me the fuck up. Oh but guess the fuck what. In a couple months I’ll be legal to buy boose. Suddenly we’re all chaps again. FUCK RIGHT OFF. I was a good fucking friend. I knew them for fucking years and I see them now and they fucking small talk me like i cant even talk about real fucking life. IM STILL THE SAME FUCKING PERSON I JUST DONT SMOKE WEED YOU FUCKS. I tried over and over again to try to make plans with them and i get that “yeah, yeah, we’ll hang out but we never actually make solid plans with you because we really don’t want to” bullshit. I sat there and listened to them cry, gave them presents, shared my fucking weed, gave them my own fucking possesions and the thanks i get is the fucking shaft.

GETTING REAL TIRED OF YOUR BULLSHIT.

STORY TIME MUTHA FUCKAS

Ok. So last night i was messaging my boyfriend who’s on vacation for a month to visit his biological father. We started with the usual “I miss you, i love you, i wish you were here” bullshit. Then we got on the whole topic of changing each other. I bring it up often because he claims I’m perfect yet when he describes his perfect girl it’s not me. ANYWAY The things we were talking about were supposed to be hypothetical. So I said I’d change his toe since he’s missing his toe nail and he seems to be very squeemish about people looking at it. His toe doesn’t bother me in the slightist so talking about HYPOTHETICALLY changing it didn’t really mean anything. He laughs it off saying he doesnt care about his toe and asks what else. I mention another minor thing and tell him its his turn to “change” something about me.

I asked him what part of me he would change, what he would do to it and why. He said he “doesn’t mind” my tummy he would rather “fix” something that i would like to be fixed as well. First I’m sitting there like FUCK YOU, he just politely said that he thinks im chubby but he tolerates it. I brush it off and then he says that what he wants to fix would fix the problem i have with my pants. I tend to wear out the inside of my jeans. I instantly knew what he was talking about and all i could think was FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU.

He knows that over the past year i got over an eatting disorder. Obviously my weight is an issue for myself and aparrently him. Which i kind of figured since his ex girlfriends HIPS are the same measurement as my WAIST. THE BIGGEST PART OF HER BODY WAS THE SAME MEASUREMENT AS THE SMALLEST PART OF MY FUCKING BODY. So im sitting here wallowing in self pitty and hatred about my size considering taking up not eatting again.

i swear if anyone else reblogs that glass butt plug exploding gif onto my dash im IMMEDIATLY UNFOLLOWING YOU. thats fucking gross. i dont need to see some limp ass dick and a giant asshole shitting out broken glass fuck you.